Thursday 26 March 2009

Merci Beaucoup

I thought about today, weeks back. I made a simple plan. It is supposed to be special but I know it can be painful too. It is a special day since it has meaning and history. It is somewhat painful because I am expecting the annual burst of emotion and this time, I have to deal with it alone. There is no mother, siblings, wife and kids to take some loads off. The plan is to get busy and get back home tired. Being spent and drained, the ejaculated emotion should not get messy and should be somewhat manageable, I think.

So today I get myself a busy day at work. It's not difficult to get one these days. I call for a team meeting after work. Hence, it's not only busy but also a long day. There isn't much on the agenda actually. It is just that I, as self-centred as I can be, need the team to be with me. I smile shamelessly that I have the team with me, to sing for me and to slice and share the feel-good, candle less cake that is simply scribbled with "Just 36, a small number".




It's my birthday today. I am happy for the song and wishes. I am thankful that the Tiramisu tastes good. I am appreciative of the past and present. I am hopeful for the future. I owe it all to the Maker. Yet, I feel lonely in this crowd and so faraway. It feels faraway from where it all begins. It feels faraway from those I wish that they were to be here with me.

Nevertheless, thank you for this gift. With your will, I will try to be a better man in this given life.

11 comments:

[danial][ma] said...

hej! Jumper...happy birthday! May you be blessed with great life ahead...

ms.d said...

happy birthday Encik jumper!!!!

i'm 10 years away back from you!
oh well,it's just a number...not a big deal...

many happy returns!!

Inah said...

Happy Birthday!!!!!!!

May you have a great year ahead!!

Glad to have you as one of my virtual friend :)

Roti Kacang Merah said...

yeah, should've done "happy 18x2, just a small number". heh heh

dude, again, hope your day's a memorable one nevertheless, mkays? great life ahead!!!

Ms B said...

Jumper,

Happy birthday! 36 is still young. I remember one guy said, 40 is the new 30.

May you have beautiful days with your loved ones!

Jumper said...

Danial,
Thank you for being the leprechaun who delivered the happy wish from the north :-)

ms.d,
Thank you for being the angel with the happy wish from the east :-)
Time is on your side. But a decade can be gone so quickly. So live your life to the fullest, dear.

Inah,
Thank you for being the angel with the happy wish from the south :-)
I'm glad to have you on my laptop screen.

Roti Kacang Merah,
Thank you for the happy wish from the sweet bakery close to home :-)
Yes, when in comes to bakery and its decor, you'll always have the upper arms. Your 18x2 is coming soon too...ha..ha..ha..

Ms B,
Thank you being my angel with the happy wish from the west :-)
I really hope 40 is the new 30.

hady said...

happy birthday mr jumper

oh, there is nothing wrong of being 40s as rasanya semua james bond pun umur 40s..

(i hope 30 is a new 20. god, i missed those 20s days)

Jumper said...

hady,
Thank you for the wish.
Enjoy your youth while you still have it. Have fun now before you have to look up for James Bond for a consolation of being 40s..ha ha ha

niQue_naQ said...

happy birthday! (^_^) i always find guys are better in their 30s, in terms of looks, maturity, and personality, so u shud embrace it! :p

when i first celebrate my birthday in UK while i was studying there, i was so desperate for company, i invited complete strangers to the party!! good thing they turned out to be decent folks hehehe

Jumper said...

niQue_naQ
Thank you for your wish. I'm embracing my 30s all right. But it's just the uncertainties of reaching 40s and beyond gives me a little uneasiness. You know things like prostate cancer starts to show up as early as we reach late 30s, also heart-related diseases, etc. The thought of being a liability to others concern me, not at all about the wrinkles and muscle sagging. Anyway, we are always at His mercy...

Glad to know that you've no fear to expose your desperation. We are all the same at some point in time..

Have a good day, niQ.

Syamsulfaiz said...

Let me be the latest person to wish you HAPPY BIRTHDAY mr jumper. May God bless you.

Allah Selamatkan Kamuuuu...